| Location | Scunthorpe, North Lincolnshire |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 23/05/2008 |
| Date of Death | 23/05/2008 |
| Visitors | 1,584 since 13/09/2009 |
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This ia a memorial dedicated to my beautiful daughter Sophie Louise Jayne North.
I love you so so much and think about you everyday. The whole family talks about you all the time, just like your here with us. Everytime i see a butterfly i think of you my angel.
I was so so excited when i found out i was expecting you, it was like all my dreams had come true.
I found out i was pregant when i was 20 years old, on the 14th January 2008.
I had my first scan on 18th February 2008 at 11.35. Me and your granny sat there staring at the screen looking at you while the lady pointed showed us you, your heartbeat, your brain, your arms ang legs. It was amazing to se your little heart beating inside of me, i felt like the luckiest person alive and couldnt believe you were actually so real.
I was so proud i carried your scan picture with me everywhere and showed it to nearly everyone, even though it just looked like a blur, i wanted everyone to see my gorgeous baby.
Everything was going well, you were growing well, everything was ok at all my midwives appoinments, that was until i reached 19 weeks and after going to the toilet i noticed blood, i was so so scared.
Instantly i startd crying and ran to your granny to ask for help. I rang thw midwives who said i should drive to Barton and they would check me over, your granny dropped everything and me, granny, auntie nicky, auntie emma and your nephew oli jumped into the car and it seemed to be the longest journey of my life.
Walking into that room with the midwife was the most anxious time of my life, i sat and spoke to the midwife about what was wrong and he asked me to lay on the couch and he would check for a heartbeat to try and confirm everything was ok. He ran the machine over my stomach and to my relief me and your granny listened to your heartbeat, i felt myself breath a big sigh of relief and then started crying, as i did the midwife placed his hand on my arm and smiled, i then felt reassured by him. (if only i'd of known then how much he would of helped me further on)
I was given some anti-biotics to clear up what they then suspected was an infection.
The next few weeks seemed to pass by so smoothly, with me feeling your first kicks and movements, that was the most amazing feeling ever. I had my second scan on 30th April 2008 at 11.40, there they told me i was expecting a baby girl, i chose the name Sophie Louise Jayne. I was so proud.
On the night of 22nd May 2008, when i was 24 weeks and 4 days, i was laid in bed and was constantly going to the toilet for about 3 hours (from what i know now, it was my waters) about 9 o'clock i sgot slight pains but by 11 o'clock they were painful so woke your granny up, she immediately rang the hospital who said i should immediately go in, we rushed in picking up Auntie nicky on the way. On the way, i looked down and realised there was blood everwhere, this scared me all the more.
As we arrived at the hospital i was wheeled onto the delivery suite where i was met by the midwife who reassured me before David Midwinter, looking back now, he was the only one who seemed to have my interests in heart. At the hospital we found out you were breech and your heart rate kept dropping.
I made the decision to have a caesarean section as it was your best chance, when your heart rate was high enough, i was wheeled into theatre and prepared, at 2.09 am on 23rd May 2008, you were lifted from my womb, no sound was made and i knew something was wrong but tried to remain hopeful, i remember looking at granny and then David walked over holding you in his arms and looked at me and said sorry, i burst out crying, i'd lost my dream come true, i didnt know what to do, he asked if i wanted to hold you but as i was still being sown up i made the decision to wait, you were passed to your granny who was the first person to hold you, she held you near me and i remember holding your tiny hand and kissing your forehead. David weighed you, you was only 1 lb 11 oz, so tiny.
We all sat and cried all morning, your granny had the worst task of ringing everyone to inform then of what had happened.
I made the decision that night to have you blessed by the hospital priest, it was just you me there baby, i wanted it to be something special just between us. Everone came to visit and i took pictures of you with them all for memories. Your stillbirth was registered on 28th May by myself and your granny.
Me and your Granny then had the priviledge but awful task of arranging your funeral, i decided to have you cremated, your cremation took place on Wednesday 4th June 2008 at 11.00am, it was the sadest day off my life saying my final goodbyes to you, Your 2 proud grandad's carried your tiny white coffin, during your service i never once took my eyes off you, i wrote a poem while i was still in hospital that i asked to be read out during your service. it was my last tribute to you,
To my precious baby daughter,
Sophie Louise Jayne North.
You wasn't here for long,
but in our hearts you will always stay,
for the first time i saw you,
you took my breath away.
With your cute button nose,
and your tiny little hands,
I couldn't believe i had made you
and got to hold you in my arms.
To me you are so precious,
my tiny bab girl,
but now your up in heaven
looking down on the world.
I hope i make you proud,
I hope i make you smile,
because thats what you have done to me,
in our short space of time.
I sit, think and imagine,
what things could of been like,
if you had still been here,
to live your precious life.
I hold you and i smile,
I hold you and i cry,
thats all because i am so proud,
that i get to call you mine.
In my womb you started to grow,
my place to keep you warm,
you blossomed from a tiny seed,
into my beautiful baby girl
The night you came is such a blur,
it all rolled into one,
the hours passedby so quickly,
while they decided what should be done.
You came out so tiny,
you came out so pure,
the love i have for you is overwhelming,
that i know for sure.
I held your hand, i stroked your cheek,
i kissed your rosebud lips,
i loveed the way you seemed to frown,
when i wrapped you in your sheets.
Youe eyes they never opened,
your lips they never moved,
but to me you are so beautiful,
im the proudest mum in the world.
But the time has come to say goodnight,
and let you rest your peaceful eyes,
i cant believe how hard it has been,
to say my final goodbyes.
I sit and think of you all the time,
and that will never change,
your my first born baby daughter,
and in my heart you will always remain.
I Love you x x x x x
I am now at the point where i can talk openly and honestly about losing you my angel. Im proud to talk about you, i love you with all my heart and i always will, we will be re-united one day, but until that day comes i hope your up there looking down on us all, i hope we make you all so proud, like you have me. There are lots of other angels up there with you and i hope your making friends and having fun.
Until we are reunited baby, look after yourself till i get there to do my motherly duty
Lots of Love from
your very proud mummy xxxxx
These are my footprints,
So perfect and so small.
These tiny footprints,
Never touched the ground at all.
Not one tiny footprint,
For now I have my wings.
These tiny footprints were meant,
For other things.
You will hear my tiny footprints,
In the patter of the rain.
Gentle drops like angel's tears,
Of joy and not from pain.
You will see my tiny footprints,
In each butterflies' lazy dance.
I'll let you know I'm with you,
If you just give me a chance.
You will see my tiny footprints,
In the rustle of the leaves.
I will whisper names into the wind,
And call each one that grieves.
Most of all, these tiny footprints,
Are found on mommy's and daddy's heart.
'Cause even though I'm gone now,
We'll NEVER truly part
hey sophie although i never got to meet you ive heard so much about you, i hope you have met julie up there and hope shes looking after you. make sure you keep watching over your georgous sister olivia shes amazing darling and has been through so much. also please watch over your mummy and dave i know there doing very well at the minit. Xxx
play nice together babies.
Xxx all my love jackie. and kyla. (julies mummy and sister) Xxx
The tiny rosebud God picked to bloom in Heaven.
The master gardener from heaven above
Planted a seed in the garden of Love,
And from it there grew a rosebud small
That never had time to open at all.
For God in his perfect and all-wise way
Chose this rose for his heavenly bouquet,
And great was the joy of this tiny rose
To be the one our Father chose
To leave earth’s garden
For one on high
where roses bloom always and never die.
So, while you can’t see your precious rose bloom,
You know the great gardener from the upper room
Is watching and tending this wee rose with care,
Tenderly touching each petal so fair.
So think of your darling with the angels above,
Secure and contented and surrounded with love,
And remember God blessed and enriched your lives too,
For in dying your darling brought heaven closer to you.
Helen Steiner Rice
Precious Child by Karen Taylor Good
In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
To my Angel x x x
When god calls little children to dwell with him above,
we mortals sometimes question the wisdom of his love.
For no heartache compares witht he death of one small child,
whos does so much to make our world seem wonderful and mild.
Perhaps god tires of calling the aged to his fold,
so he picks a rosebud before she can grow old.
God knows how much we need them and so he takes but a few,
to make the land of heaven more beautiful to view.
Believing this is difficult, still somehow we must try,
the saddest words mankind knows will always be "Goodbye".
So when a little child departs we who are left behind must realise,
god loves children, Angels are hard to find x x x x
Hi Angel x x x x
Hi my angel,
mummy misses you more than you can ever know. I think and talk about you all the time.
You now have a little sister, her name is Olivia, she too like you was born very early (26 weeks) but after a long tough fight in the hospital she is now home. I know you was watching over us all and giving her your strength through the tough time. Olivia reminds me of you so much. Your strength and loves lives on through her. You taught me how to be a mummy, although it wasn't for long, you taught me all i needed to know in such a short time. It would of been your second birthday on May 23rd 2010, this is also the day ive decided to have Olivia christened on. The special bond between you both will never be broken. Ive started writing poems now aswell baby, its more my thought and memories on our short but special time together, i will write these on shortly so you can enjoy them with all your friends. I hope your being good up in heaven. We will be re-united one day baby, but until then, im sending you all my love hugs and kisses, Love from Lisa, Dave and Olivia x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x
THINKING OF YOU ALL
Hugs From Heaven
When you feel a gentle breeze
Caress you when you sigh
It's a hug from Heaven
From a loved one way up high.
If a soft and tender raindrop
Lands upon your nose
They've added a small kiss
As fragile as a rose.
If a song you hear fills you
With feeling of sweet love
It's a hug from Heaven
From someone up above.
If you awaken in the morning
To a bluebird's chirping song
It's music sent from Heaven
To cheer you all day long.
If little tiny snowflakes
Land upon your face
It's a hug from Heaven
Trimmed with Angel lace.
So keep the joy in your heart
If you're lonely my dear friend
Hugs that are sent from Heaven
A broken heart will mend.
To The Child I'll Never Know - by Gloria Dianne
How can I say Good Bye
When I never said Hello,
Why does my heart grieve
For the child I'll never know?
You were a part of me
For just a little while.
I grieve because I'll never see
The magic in your smile.
I grieve for all the unsaid words
That you will never say.
I grieve that I will never see
You happily at play.
I grieve for all the lullabies
That will remain unsung.
I grieve because I'll never see
Your face gleaming like the sun.
I grieve because you will never know
The comfort of my touch.
I grieve because you will never know
That you were loved so much.
I grieve for all the tomorrows
That will never be.
I grieve because God chose
To take you back from me.
You live among the Angels now
Your earthly mission done,
You will be so dearly missed
Good-Bye my little one.
Snowdrop x
The world may never notice
If a Snowdrop doesn't bloom,
Or even pause to wonder
If the petals fall too soon.
But every life that ever forms,
Or ever comes to be,
Touches the world in some small way
For all eternity.
The little one we long for
Was swiftly here and gone.
But the love that was then planted
Is a light that still shines on.
And though our arms are empty,
Our hearts know what to do.
Every beating of our hearts
Says of our love for you.
(Author Unknown)
If tears could build a stairway,
And memories were a lane,
I would walk right up to Heaven
To bring you home again.
No farewell's were spoken,
No time for goodbye,
You were gone before I knew it,
And only God knows why.
My heart still aches in sadness,
And secret tears will flow,
What is meant to me to lose you,
No one will ever know.
Author Unknown
thinking of you and your family Love Sharon xxxxxx
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